You're a cold heart, girl.

Narcissing herself in the double glass.
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James “Bucky” Barnes (Winter Soldier) and Sam Wilson (Falcon)

Sam: I got ya.

Bucky: Thanks.

SamNo problem. Saving Captain America. It’s what I do.

(via stardustandsunhands)


"I live in New York and I love it, because it doesn’t make me feel like my life is always just about acting and that world of acting. I don’t have expectations."


"I live in New York and I love it, because it doesn’t make me feel like my life is always just about acting and that world of acting. I don’t have expectations."

(via the-kellephant)




fan comic of a scene from we did not make ourselves (gen, steve/bucky) by morgan-leigh

I hope it’s okay ;; 






The Good Vibe

The other night jedimara77 was talking to her mom on the phone (I think it was her mom) and she said something along the lines of: can you imagine yourself from a year ago seeing you now? And that stopped me short. Because just, jesus guys, I can’t

On good days I can barely picture MYSELF NOW seeing myself now. I don’t understand how I’ve gotten here. I don’t understand how I keep going. I don’t understand how everything is stressful and so much more of life than usual hurts but I feel like I’m doing the right thing. Why I’m simultaneously so sad about leaving this place, but so happy to be leaving this place. And I feel lighter and infinitely more in love with myself even though I miss having someone else tell me they love me. (Er…not that I ever feel unloved. My friends tell me and show me they love me all the time. But that’s not quite the same as desirous or romantic love, you know? I WANT ALL THE TYPES OF LOVE.) 

Me a year ago was coming to terms with what she thought would be the next chapter of her life. It wasn’t settling so much. It didn’t feel like settling. I loved him so much. I was continuously falling in love with him over and over again as things shifted around us. I was planning on moving across the country with him while he went to grad school. I wanted to support him. And even though parts of that relationship were clearly stressful and toxic to both of us, I wanted it. It was all I’d known for over twelve years. I wanted to keep him so much it physically hurt. And now…the weight is gone. I can breathe. Now I don’t doubt myself. Now I don’t feel bad about things I feel. Now I don’t constantly worry about what he thinks. 

I’m lonely a bit, but I’m happier. I think. The closer we get to a full year, the closer I get to reconciling who I was with who I am and who I can be now. It’s an incredible responsibility. I hope the me a year from now is up to the task. 

(via goldenwolfrose)

Asker lisapizza Asks:
my new work friend was saying she might just wait to watch cap 2 til it was out of theaters so i went to your tumblr and showed her pictures of sebstan until she changed her mind. so good job?
charmingpplincardigans charmingpplincardigans Said:

You are doing the Lord’s work, and he thanks you. 

allofthefeelings replied to your post “For real though, the number one reason I over-identify with Bucky…”

Oh, it isn’t because you have a metal arm? MY MISTAKE.


For real though, the number one reason I over-identify with Bucky Barnes is that he is not made of bright light—he has to work to shine himself—but he’s so very, very attracted to it in others. 

Asker amarguerite Asks:
Captain America 3: Obsessively Hitting Refresh on the OPM Website
charmingpplincardigans charmingpplincardigans Said:
Asker Anonymous Asks:
i'm confused about that gifset from the first captain america movie where everyone is cheering for steve and bucky is too but then when steve turns around, bucky's face falls. like. why? did he have something to be upset about? maybe i'm just missing a lot of context
charmingpplincardigans charmingpplincardigans Said:


i think the most important thing to remember in that scene is that bucky literally just came out of a cell where he was being tortured for days. (and you know that he was being tortured/experimented on bc even before we knew he survived, he was muttering name rank and serial number on that bench which are the only things a soldier is allowed to reveal under torture, and also to get the level of treatment that’s entitled to their rank.) and it’s very clear and very obvious in sebstan’s choices that the bucky that came out of that hydra base is not the bucky who sauntered down the alleyway towards steve who didn’t know, really, what he was going into.

just basing it off the movie, he’s a boy who gets sold the idea of this war. that he was going to wear these clean pressed uniforms and tilt his hat all cocky like and swagger down the street with a girl on each arm, that he was going to go overseas - something that he wouldn’t have been able to do before because while wealthy young men still did the grand tour, he is not a wealthy young man - and kill nazis and fight the good fight and come back. war isn’t a call of duty; war isn’t even an aspiration; war is an adventure. he was going to come back and steve was going to be safe drafting up propaganda posters or picking up trash or whatever, and he was going to find himself a girl and find steve a girl and this entire war is going to be a great adventure, and he’s leaving the hero and he will come back still a hero. it’s not that he’s blind to the casualties of war - ‘this isn’t a back alley, steve.’ - it’s just that he didn’t think those same risks would apply to himself; not in the sense that he thought he wouldn’t die, but in the sense that he thought he wouldn’t have to get his hands dirty.

and that’s really what it is - it’s envy in some respects, but mostly i think it’s bitterness and it’s resentment; not at steve - never at steve - but at this war and at the universe and at this army and this country for leaving him for dead, for selling him this idea of glory and adventure and giving him instead two weeks on a bench screaming himself hoarse while the higher ups washed their hands and said there was nothing they could do. this is how the war narrative goes: the boy soldier goes to war and overcomes his hardships, he gets the girl and he punches the bad guy in the face. he comes back a man and he might be scarred and changed and he might have bad dreams, but he comes back whole. bucky barnes did not come back whole. bucky barnes, in all the ways that matter, did not come back. the great part of the first captain america film - even though it was a straight up hero origin story - is that it subverts that classic war narrative. two boys from brooklyn go to war, and one gets turned into a super soldier while another falls screaming into the abyss, one gets buffed and shined into the symbol of a nation and another gets his hands dirty becoming the underside of the war, but neither one of these boys come back. this is what happens. neither steve rogers nor bucky barnes came back whole. neither steve rogers nor bucky barnes ever stopped fighting in that war; so that’s really what it is to me, the realization there that this isn’t the fight he signed up for, that yes, steve just saved a couple hundred men single handedly but what does it say about the people he’s fighting for that steve had to do that alone in the first place? what does it say about the people he’s volunteering himself for that they’d leave these people to die screaming themselves hoarse on a mad scientist’s bench? 

and then the fact that steve wants to go back. that he’s so good and so true and so kind and so stupid that he can’t see what bucky sees, that these people will rip him up and spit him back out only they never do and never can because steve is just. that. good. and he wants to go back, and on the surface - at least right at this point - he’s living out the war hero narrative that should be bucky’s, was bucky’s for all intents and purposes, that the same experience that ruined him from inside out and changed him in ways he couldn’t even put his finger on only buffed steve’s shine more and made him the hero, the icon, the myth. bucky comes back from the hydra base the bare husk of what he had been. steve came more as more. and you can love someone with your whole heart - as bucky does - you can be willing to do anything for them, but some part of you, something small and ugly and dark, it’s always going to be resentful that the worst experience of your life is the best adventure of someone else’s. some part of him will always be screaming on that bench. 

(via sgtbarnes)